first of all anyone who reads this and knows my family or you family knows my family..THIS IS NEVER TO BE SPOKEN OF!!!!!!!!!! OR I WILL KILL AND KILL AND KILLL AND KILL AND SO ON....IF EVEN A LITTLE SLIP HAPPENS I WILLL KILLLLLLL NOT TO MENTION I WILL TOTALLY DENY IT, BUT I WILLL KILL AND DISEMBOWEL AND KILLL!!!!!!!

so as some of you know I am an actress...not in the professional world yet, but I'm working on it...any one in need of an actress??? haha anyways...I was in class and my teacher was working with me and my scene partner. she was blocking us (for those of you non-theatre people this means to set the movement of the characters, where they move on stage).

my scene partner is a guy and we are doing a scene where he is a rapist/ women handicapper. he performs spinal cordotomies (?)..umm meaning he paralyzez their entire body including their mouth so that they are basically concious vegetables.

anyways in this scene I make him think that he has ssucceeded in drugging me, then I turn around and drug him and give him a frontal labotomy...it's a very scary scene.

so we were working on it and my teacher says "ok I am gonna need a kiss here"

so of course in my head I freaked out, but remained totally calm on the outside. then she goes on to say "it doesn't have to be a french kiss or anything like that, just something small" however still....

anyways I know as an actress, and not a very old or very ugly one, I will be asked this a lot and probably even more so...so I know I will have to get used to it....so we'll see

but I am not exactly ready for this now....hmmm well maybe if it was a certain someone in class...watashi no nihon jin tomodachi...teehee..yeah so...I dunno...we'll see what happens